Hello everyone,
I wanted to type this up and post it on New Year’s Day, but why wait? I want to let you know what’s happening on my end. If I stop posting one day, stop replying to messages, and never log back in, I promise you that nothing bad happened. I’m just getting older, ancient in internet years, and find myself less interested in using the internet how I used to. That’s not to say I haven’t had fun and don’t enjoy drawing goofy shit, I just don’t have the same level of interest to keep up the level of engagement I’ve kept up previously.
I’ve mentioned it before I think (I hope) but I really appreciate how much people like my work. Even seeing a tag like “#ehjffkfhekje #im dying” makes me happy because I made that person lose their shit. I am grateful for all of the kind messages that have been sent my way as well.
Even more humbling is knowing that some of you have been following my work for 10 years, a little more in some cases. That is mindblowing to me. You endured the cringy growing pains, the more extreme shitposting, the good with the bad, because you saw something you liked. Thank you!
To keep it real for even one moment because I can be very sarcastic/“ironic” and guarded at times: I’ve had a lot of regrets on the internet, things I did/said, and fucked up people that I wish I had never tolerated or even met. But even with all that I’m so happy with what I gained from having this internet second life. One thing I never talk about publicly but is important to me on a level that makes it hard to open up about is the times that people I’ve been shitty to in my youth have sought reconciliation or even just an apology, and I’ve been able to take the chance that they’ve given me. It’s humbling and it’s something I didn’t think would be possible on the internet. Although I’ve reached out to people in the past, they didn’t have to do that, but they did it, and it’s as close as I can come to undoing a wrong.
I’ve also had the fortune of meeting some of the coolest people I would have never come across in real life, and even hung out with them in real life. It’s still amazing to me that I’ve kept online friends from as far as a decade ago, and how much we’ve been able to affect each other’s real life in a positive way. Again, I don’t take for granted all the kindness sent my way and the fact that people even liked me or my work on the internet.
Thank you!
Sorry for the late reply, but I wanted to say my goodbyes to you just in case you’re serious about your retirement from the internet.
I remember seeing you on DA in the past and didn’t think much of you before, but then I met you here and learned that that you are one of the best, most down to earth people I ever met.
My fav part about you was your band of OCs based on different eras of shooters and art in general which is super appealing. I remember when I made that lil’ fan animation of your boy Stan doing a big yawn! But more importantly, I loved reading whatever was on your mind at the time.
Whatever you do in the future, and whether or not you’ll make a comeback to the internet on a social media site similar to this one but not run by irresponsible knuckleheads, I am most definitely gonna miss you.
